Bad Timing!!

First of all I want to thank everyone for your nice, encouraging comments, they really helped me feel better.

Secondly, I must have the worst timing in the world with my blog posts. Last time that I wrote about the trials in my life in this post the very next day Kailie was diagnosed with Diabetes and I just wished more than anything that I could just go back to those trials before the diagnosis and how easy they seemed.

This time I write the previous post and then a few days later we find out that now Kailie might have Celiacs Disease on top of Diabetes. Seriously, I think I should just never write again about anything hard or bad in our lives. All I want now is just for her to only have Diabetes when before Diabetes seemed so overwhelming. Funny how things change so quick. As for the Celiac's we won't know anything for sure until April when they can do the test but we are praying for a miracle that she doesn't have it. It seems like we are drowning as is so that new disease might just push us under.

In other news in our diabetes journey. We started Kailie on a insulin pump today. I have been really excited the past few months to get her on the pump but today I have really mixed emotions about it. I realized this morning as I was bathing her that today was the last day that she will not have something attached to her body for probably the rest of her life and it just made me really sad. I know that the pump will help keep her blood sugars better regulated which will be super nice since lately her average has been in the 300 and she will be able to eat whatever she wants whenever which is awesome. But it is a big change and I don't do well with change so we will see how this goes. As of tonight I am not so excited about it.

Putting things into perspective!

The past few weeks have not been the best for us here in the Theler household, we had a great time in Utah visiting family and friends but it was also hard for me. The past 6 months or so, I have become more isolated and instead of trying to plan fun things with friends I just go by myself or just stay home. We do still hang out with friends just not nearly as much as in Hawaii. Part of that is making new friends is harder but I realized while in Utah that part of it is because I have hard time being around everybody because most everyone I know has perfectly healthy children and when I am around them I am reminded how much Diabetes sucks and how care-free and easy life would be for all of us if we didn't have this disease. I know that I become very envious that their kids can not eat and be fine or just go to bed and the parents have no worries that they might not be alive in the morning.

Kailie's blood sugars were all over the place the last week in Utah actually we were in Vegas and it was hard, she was sick and I had no idea why she was going so low all day long and then the next day she was high high high, then I got sick again and was throwing-up but I still had to take care of Kai. Sure my cousins could help change her and give here baths and even feed her but I had to check her and give her insulin and get up in the middle of the night and wake up early when she did. I just started to become very angry, most of my anger was towards God. Just questioning why she was given this disease and at such a young age. I can't help but feel sometimes that we got gipped. We barely got to enjoy Kailie for 16  months and now our focus is on blood sugar and insulin. Instead of talking about the cute things she did or the new word she learned we discuss her numbers. Night time is the hardest for both Jared and I, that is when we get the most sad and angry. My last night in Utah, Kailie was low when I checked her at 10 pm so I had to wake her up and give her something to eat but of course she didn't want to eat. She has actually gotten pretty good at eating in the middle of the night but this night she wasn't having it and wouldn't eat anything, not fruitsnacks, cookies, ice cream, yogurt, choc, smarties, milk, you name it she wouldn't have it. I called Jared who was in New York just because I didn't know what to do and an hour later I finally had to force down her throat some cake gel frosting. Pour thing was screaming and so mad and tired. Then I finally get to sleep and wake up a few hours later to check and sure enough she skyrocketed, I must have given her more than I thought, so I had to give her a shot. And boy was I mad!!! Not at Kailie, I am never mad at her!  I was tired, I knew we both had to get up early and fly back to NY and I just didn't understand why she went so high. Needless to say the flight was not the best but we made it and as we were driving the two hours back to Syracuse Jared and I started talking about how we were both angry last night at God and that we needed to get these issues worked out soon before Kailie is old enough to understand.

The next day was tough, I was super emotional all day and just not happy. This whole week I have been thinking about how crappy this is and how I wish there was a way to heal her. Last night after talking about it all with Jared I realized I need to be grateful for the things I do have and not focus on the bad things. Did I mention that we are also trying to have another baby and have been trying for over a year now, so that just adds to all my frustrations and stress.

This evening everything was put into perspective when we were able to talk with some friends from Hawaii who have a daughter that has recently been diagnosed with a horrible Kidney Failure disease. A disease that is a lot harder than diabetes. After, I just had this overwhelming gratitude that Kailie didn't have a disease like that.  As much as diabetes sucks, you can still do most anything, go anywhere and our friends won't have that. As tough as our situation is there is always someone who has it harder and that is a reminder that I needed. Sure I wish Kai was healthy of course but I am so happy to have her in my life. I would take a Kailie with Diabetes over no Kailie any day!!

Now I just need to keep things in perspective and be grateful for what I do have which is a lot. Mostly, I am really grateful for Jared, he is a great dad and a wonderful husband and there is no way I could do this with out him!

Christmas/ New Years Card!

Jan l. 2011

Dear Family and Friends,

Well another year has come and gone and again we figured we would prolong the Christmas spirit
and send out our Cards after the New Year.

2010 was definitely a year of opposites for our family. We started out the year living in beautiful
Hawaii. Enjoying the sunshine and great weather. Jared was extremely busy being the Chief Resident
and Bishop at the same time. I was busy serving in the Young Womens, teaching Pilates and of
course taking care of Kailie.

In April our world got turned upside down when little Kailie who was 16 months old at the time was
diagnosed with type 1 diabetes. It has been a huge adjustment for us all, especially Jared and I. Kailie
has taken it in stride and doesn't seemed to be too bothered by the pricks or the insulin shots.

In June we said goodbye to our first home Hawaii and all of our dear friends and moved across the
nation to Syracuse, New York. Syracuse has been completely opposite of Hawaii especially
experiencing fall and winter for the first time in 5 years and boy is it cold!!

Jared pretty much sets his own hours at work and has enjoyed the time he has to learn and study. He
is loving the fellowship he is doing in cranial facial reconstruction and is trying to soak in as much
knowledge and experience he can get in this fellowship year. As far as church goes he got the calling
he was hoping for; we team teach the CTR 4 class and he loves it. After being Bishop all he wanted
to do was be in the primary.

I spend my days hanging out with the Kaister. We have fun just playing at home or going to the park,
meeting up with friends. New York has been an adjustment for me and I spend a lot more time at
home than I did in Hawaii. I loved the fall time here, the east truly does have amazing leaves and I
am really enjoying visiting the big cities. As much as I love the outdoors I think I was born to live in
a big city.

Kailie just turned 2 this past November and is definitely a full on toddler equipped with tantrums and
everything else associated with the terribly two's but mostly she is an incredibly loving, kind kid who
loves to laugh and play and is very mischievous. She is not afraid of anyone and loves to be around
people. We are-grateful that she is so easy-going because diabetes brings a lot of added stress and
things to worry about and do everyday. Her sweet spirit just makes it that much easier to handle.

We miss Hawaii and all of our friends terribly but have enjoyed meeting new people and visiting
some of the great sights in the East such as: Niagara Falls, Boston, New York City and Palmyra. We
cannot believe that our time in NY is half way over and are nervous/excited to find out where our
new home will be this July.

We are happy to put 2010 behind us and are grateful for the many people who have helped us
through out this year. We are especially grateful for our knowledge of the Savior and the plan and
Salvation and that someday Kailie will be healed of her illness.

We hope you all had a very Merry Christmas and have a very Happy and Healthy 2011.

Love,
The Theler's
Jared, Gina and Kailie

Las Vegas!

After Christmas, Daddy headed back to New York and Mommy and Kai got to go see and play with family in St. George and Las Vegas. First Stop, Hurricane where we got to visit with Uncle Fred and Aunt Sylvia, Uncle Wes and Aunt Marilyn. Kandis, Jenn and I the youngest three cousins on the White side still have to sit at the kids table!! Kandis, Weston, Jenn, Bennett and Ava and Kailie and Mommy!

The Aunts and Uncles a the big adults table!

Kailie had fun meeting some of her cousins and bullying them as always!

Ava, Kai, Ryler, Weston, Gage and Bennett!

The three White rascals back together again!

Then we headed down to Vegas to spend a few days with Jenn and Chris. Poor Kai got some flu bug while there and was not feeling great, thankfully her's past pretty fast and was not too bad. Then I got it and I just felt horrible!! So annoying!

Aunt Chris tries to help the little ones take turns!

Let's all go together!

Bath time!

 The kids loved eating at this little table!

Jenn and her kiddos!

Aunt Chris with Kailie!

Kai and Ava snuggle in bed before bedtime!

Not sure if Ava is liking this arrangement!

Two crazy hair kids, enjoying their food!

Kai hangs out with sick Mommy on the couch!

We went and visited my cousin Sandy and Jenn. The girls loved this huge stuffed dog!

It was so fun to spend a few days together. Chris and Jenn kept asking me if I was pregnant because I was sick and the last time I was there I was pregnant and was trying to hide but they figured it out. This time I wasn't pregnant just sick but I did end up getting pregnant a couple of weeks later. I think Jenn and Chris have some magic spell to make me get pregnant!

Christmas Eve Eve

We had 4 Christmas's this year. At least that is what it felt like it so here is the first of our Christmas posts.

 

Kailie amazingly sitting very nicely next to a Chocolate Nativity. This is one thing we give to our friends and neighbors for Christmas along with some yummy dried pineapple which of course everybody thought we brought back from Hawaii. Ironically, I actually started the tradition of drying pineapple long before I ever lived in Hawaii! Just so we are clear, they do sell Pineapple here in Syracuse!

Back to the Nativity, Kailie kept stealing the chocolate treats as I would make them, and one time she got a hold of the container holding them and we literally had a tug of war over it, before I could get it from her she grabbed a a Baby Jesus and threw it in her mouth. Little stinker, she was so in trouble!! So now you know why I was amazed that I could get this photo with out her eating the whole thing.

Since we were flying to Utah on Christmas Eve we decided to open some presents here so we didn't have to pack them there and back.

Getting ready to open presents!

Books, books and more books. You gotta love Target's dollar area!

Opening a gift from Daddy!

I was so excited for Jared to open this present. I always try to make him at least one present and this was it this year. He has been missing Surfing pretty bad so I made him a poster to hang up in his office with a bunch of photos of him surfing. Yes there is two because the first one was darker than I wanted so I redid it and then I realized that the second one had a typo, oh well  I guess I will just have to do a third one.

Kailie opening a gift!!

As a reminder to myself, don't travel for Christmas, just stay home have Christmas and then go visit family. It is to crazy to travel and worry about gifts!!

Christmas in New York!

Well we have shown our time in NYC and visiting the Dicken's festival but what is Christmas like in Syracuse? Well seeing as I have literally spent most of December hiding out in my house since it has been snowing so much, we really haven't done much. I have never in my life been home so much, it is kind of weird but I guess that is life when you have little kids and it is freezing outside!!  

 The few times I have ventured out we have done some fun stuff.

Visiting Santa.
This time she cried for about 5 minutes and then Santa bribed her with a candy cane and jingle bells. It worked long enough to get a photo!

The pathway that I love to workout on in the summer is transformed during Christmas into Lights on the Lake so we finally made it there. The nativity scene which ironically enough was right next the Hanaka lights.

Family Portrait!

Entering the Crazy Land of Oz. When did The Wizard of OZ become a Christmas thing anyways?

Halfway through we let Kai out of her car seat which literally is a little piece of heaven for her to get to play in the car. She was just like my dogs and kept her head out of the window most of the drive.

I didn't really expect her to be that into it but she sure was!! 

She loved it!

These lights made us just a little bit homesick for Hawaii!! Especially this video!! I can't believe I miss golfing so much!!

 Sunday evening we decided to do a Christmas Party with some friends from church. Basically all the other residents in the ward. We had Gigantic Bread Bowls with a side of soup. Definitely one thing I love about the cold weather.

 The kids being crazy!

Kailie joining the fun!

Some of the other highlights this holiday season was a cookie exchange with a bunch of the women from church. Everyone brought 6 dozen of a favorite holiday treat and then everyone took a few of each. We were supposed to then give to neighbors. Then we did an ornament exchange which was so fun. Mostly it was just fun to get out of the house and associate with others who are taller than 2 feet.

Two-Year-Old For Sale

I have a Two-Year-Old for Sale:

She comes equipped with temper-tantrums, a very loud though not as loud as some voice box, never-ending batteries, the ability to get into any and everything no matter how high or where you hide it. She is programmed to disobey every command and thinks time-out is a game. She was built with a very mischievous side and is only quiet while getting into something she knows she's not supposed to.  Her clothing preference is none and

Her favorite activities include running away from mommy (although in all fairness I probably would run to if someone kept sticking me with needles all day), climbing on to the counter, eating the gingerbread house, making messes, whining, fake crying and always finding some sort of treat to eat. She will even fight for the right to eat a chocolate baby Jesus and loves to run straight to her hide out corner anytime we ask her to come to us!!

Will take any reasonable offers!